Category Archives: Berlin

Room full of bug mirrors, finally finished! And why living in a Berlin altbau is very, very hard.

Wall of insect mirrors Feb 2024Wow it took a long time to realize this particular vision!

I saw a picture of a shop in France with a wall of insect mirrors a few years ago. The shop didn’t sell online, so basically I sourced all the mirrors they sold by individually tracking them down on the internet.

Wall of insect mirrors Feb 2024 cu editThis took some time, even though shopping is one of my great skills.

As several bug mirrors had to be shipped from the UK Post-Brexit, I also had to go slowly because of cost. The largest beetle mirror was actually the cheapest, from German home decor company Kare, the same place our Alice in Wonderland chandelier in the salon came from.

The smaller mirrored beetle and cicada came from the UK, and shipping plus VAT cost as much as they did. Brexit is so bad. These two smaller guys didn’t have any rings or hooks for mounting, so I did my usual combination of wire, drilling, epoxy clay and gilding to make them hangable. And secure! I still operate as if an earthquake could come any second, despite nine years next month of no earthquakes.

So this is the first post about our home decor in many years. A big part of why is that I have simply been too sick to do the last 5% of the decorating.

Another reason is that we got a couple of pieces of bad news about our building in 2021.

We had hoped to live here the rest of our lives, but the last few years have been rough. In December of 2020, we learned that the entire attic of the building was consumed by “wood mushroom” or dry rot, and that some long-delayed reconstruction we had not previously heard about would begin in 2021.

And so an elevator was bolted to the building outside our bedroom window, where it makes horrible screeching metal noises both going up and down, and the shouting workmen haul crashing metal carts into the courtyard below our window and load said elevator, at 7am. At ten minutes to eight, because 10pm to 8am are “quiet hours” in Germany, the sound of metal fatigue shears through the wall by our heads. In 2021-2022 this happened almost every day, six days a week, and as a person with DSPS who sleeps til noon on a good day, it really messes me up.

The construction has gone on for three years, with various periods of reprieve.

Nowadays the terrible elevator sound mostly comes without warning during a quiet interval, jolting us awake in fear. My precious Sadie got me Loop earplugs, which are the first ones I have ever been able to wear comfortably, and they help a lot. So now if I get woken up at least I can put them in and get back to sleeo.

However, there is a significant concern that the dry rot is all through the building and it will simply collapse, as happens sometimes with altbau buildings in Germany. So that’s fun. At least I got some of my art and clothing archives out of the building with the Takeaway!

And, there is Legionella!

Also in 2021, we got a letter saying our building water supply had Legionella, but not to worry, it’s not a concern for healthy people. There have been many letters since, many desperate emails sent by me, many attempts to report this to health agencies. No clarity has been achieved about whether there is still Legionella, and meanwhile the President of the EU Parliament died of Legionnaire’ Disease. So I take it fucking seriously, as an immune-compromised person, and we have spent hundreds of euros on filters for the taps.

What about the Mieterverein?

We are members in good standing of the wonderful Berlin Tenant’s Association, and we did pursue speaking to a lawyer there about all this stuff last year. But they sent us a letter requesting documentation that caused me to have absolute ADHD terror and paralysis. I could not organize the paperwork, last year while I was also horribly stressed by our tax preparers becoming unusable and having to make a spreadsheet and contact a hundred tax preparers to find a new one.

Tax preparers and lawyers in Germany SUCK. They are almost all extremely shady and hard to deal with. So, maybe we’ll do the Mieterverein process this year, and try to get the water tested again and the balcony inspected to see if it’s gonna fall off or only looks that way.

Things are dicey in our home, but I decided I might as well do a few tiny things around the house anyway!

 

Once and Future Queer Berlin: Chez Pansy is coming, if we help!

Mixed media drawing. Berlin drag producer Pansy performs at the inaugural Ringelpiez Berlin show at Theatre des Westens by Suzanne Forbes Aug 22 2023It already seems like a dream that this happened.

Last year, legendary Berlin drag producer Pansy co-directed a performance program and hosted monthly drag parties called Ringelpiez at Berlin’s historic Theater des Westens. But that beautiful showcase for Queer Berlin was abruptly ended as German culture began to shut down, censor and cancel all over.

Now, Pansy is making a new sanctuary for Berlin queers!

Berlin drag producer and host Pansy at the Theater Des Westens. Pansy, a white drag queen, wears an elaborate gown and stands in the beautiful foyer of the Theater.

Chez Pansy is coming, if we all help to make it happen!

At a time when creative and community sanctuary and a privately funded venue with new queer jobs is desperately needed, Chez Pansy will provide both. And Pansy has confirmed that Chez Pansy will have disability access and a disabled bathroom, incredibly rare and not required by law in Berlin.

Nana Schewitz performs at Ringelpiez Berlin by Suzanne Forbes Nov 6 2023Above, Berlin superstar Nana Schewitz performing at the inaugural Ringelpiez party by Pansy, last summer.

A few months later Jews! Jews! Jews!, the gloriously cheeky and openhearted variety revue Nana co-produces with Lolita Vavoom, had their Hanukkah show canceled by the scheduled venue. Creative life, community and funding in Germany is being shut down at a terrifying speed.

I’m so glad I was able to go to one of Pansy’s drag shows at Theater des Westens IRL.

Pansy made sure I had an extremely comfortable chair, and I got to be photographed by my dear friend, colleague and Patron Daniel Paikov.

The opportunity to draw all these marvelous performers in a beautiful, luxurious, grown-up venue seems hard to imagine now. But it can happen again.

Below, lovely Lola Rose brought magic to the Theater des Westens.

Eternal Muse Lola, so happy to draw her IRL again!

You can find Miss Lola Rose on Insta and my drawings of Lola Rose here.

Drawing of Akynos, a curvacious Black femme, performing at Pansy's Ringelpiez Berlin by Suzanne Forbes Aug 24 2023Akynos is always a pleasure to draw.

She burned up the dance floor! To follow The Incredible, Edible Akynos:  linktree and Insta and twitter, get on her Patreon, and see previous drawings I’ve made of her here!

Ixa Psyborg djs at Pansy's Ringelpiez Berlin by Suzanne Forbes July 26 2023Beautiful Ixa Psyborg dj’ing under the pink lights in the glittering Theater des Westens foyer.

I always love to draw Ixa. Their Pink Noize album is on bandcamp here.

Missteak, a plus size nonbinary person, performs at the inaugural Ringelpiez Berlin show at Theatre des Westens by Suzanne Forbes Aug 22 2023First time drawing the wonderful Miss Steak!

Such a great performer. Their piebald cow suit of velcro flesh parts and their interactive performance with it is fantastic.

Daniel Paikov’s beautiful photos of this show start here. I loved this show, and I am so grateful for my Patrons’ support, which made it possible for me to document it. You can help me keep working, here.

As public funding for the arts collapses in Germany, we will need to fund it ourselves.

Let’s start with Chez Pansy. The GFM is closing on 20% of its goal.